It's a new achievement.

HOME SWEET HOME PEOPLE! I'm back from the 6TH Annual School Camp NCC(Sea). It's and assure that it was a fun and tiring camp. Which camps are not fun and tiring right right? I admit, i do enjoyed myself eventhough i hurt my left ankle during the morning run on the second day.

Yesterday, i met up with Fafa first before we head to school. We were quite late, i didn't get to message people for the last time. I had to quickly off my phone, i'm sorry if any of you guys smsed me. The first day went off nice with some games and then we had some drills. The night walk wasn't that scary but i still prefer the Orientation Camp ones. We planned not to sleep but then in the end, all of us went to sleep. I slept with my dearie, mirah and Iwan(bear version) hahahahha~ Had some talk with them before i went to sleep. I'm sure getting a lot of rest that night that i'm super lazy to wake up the following day.

We were only allowed to wake up from six and above but no one told us the previous night, i took the chance to bath early but then the plan failed -.- Had a bath and has morning physical exercise. I sprained my ankle a little bit which cause it to swell on the ankle. I just stand up and did some jumping jacks and more stuffs. It all came an end when i seriously could not move my ankle, it hurts a lot. This is the second time i've injured myself so bad )': I wasn't able to do a lot of stuff, i can't join in the games and drills but wait, i get to join in the phototaking session (: It was fun! Then had some games and finally it's time for the ceremony. I got a lot of badges that i received today and i even, get promoted to the next rank which is Copral. Yay! I'm really proud of it. Next i'm gonna try second or first sergeant than SSG. Hahah!

We are supposed to end around 6.30pm but then something cocked up. We are not able to collect all our valuables. So i decided to wait until a very long period of time till the school OM comes back to give back all our valuables. Hmmm, it's sounds likes another lesson for me to leave my valuables at home for any camp. Nevermind. Miss Neo helped us too and Maam Tan bought for us Mc'Chicken. Thanks Miss Neo, Ma'am tan, Ma'am Neo and Sir Chng for everthing. I went home after eating and i'm soooooo exhausted. See those pictures on top? That's basically what i got during the ceremony. Actually,i got one more cert to take which is the The Best Cadet Drill or something in my platoonmates. I won the place! A lot more but i didn't get the place. So, another good news is, i'm gonna be in-charge for next year's Freestyle Drill Competition. So i'll be undergoing a course soon in November for the Freestyle and i have to come back and teach the juniors. I'm so happy.

Okay, i think i should stop here. Bye :D

I'm away, with heartbroken.

Hi thereeeeee, okay the countdown is over for Annual School Camp this year. It's the day today. I'm looking forward for it but then i just don't have a heart to look at myself hurt so much like this. I slept late yesterday night which is at four in the morning and i took the little bear that you bought for me and i kept on kissing the bear, kiss and kiss and kiss. Maybe, by this camp i'm able to get myself out from this situation. I'm still traumatised and this feeling has been haunting me a lot since it's gonna be halloween's night today. But, i'm still sad )': Like what i've said, i'm not strong enough to go to this type of pace. I'm weak in all this stuff.

I'm gonna be awaaaay for two days as camp will be going on, i'll be back on Saturday evening and i will try to update as soon as possible if i can. I'm planning to go out of house on Monday and go out with my Amirah to Vivo or something and let's have a break together. Me love you (: Nana,Atiqah,Fiqah and Qis, we shall plan the wild wild wet outing soon okaaay? I promise (:

Now,

TAKECARE and ASSURE ME THAT YOU GUYS WILL BE FINE (:

When love, turns out wrong.

Hi there. Like finally i get to talk that freaking bitch afterall what she has done to my relationship. She loves to twist the story and blame others for it. What do she think she is? Lie-ing is just what she knows. First she told me a story, then she go on and keep on chaging the story and go on and on. I'm very thankful towards the three of her friends for telling me everthing that she's done towards them and myself. How can someone hate another person in just two days after knowing him? Ridiculous right? I just don't get it, every time i asked her to tell the truth, she just tell lies to me. Am i being to harsh on you? I have too, i'm sorry. I didn't meant to hurt my juniors but you are really getting into my nerves so much bitch. I'm settle with you already but then i got to know something is up between the both of you. So, i'm very fortunate to have very caring and loving friends. I really appreciate everything that you guys done to help me, without you guys i don't think i will know what's going on and i will still be treated as a dumb towards him.

We had a talk between the three of us, she told me he kissed her on the mouth and do stuff with the tounge and he told me a diffrent story. People see, my dear. People spy on the both of you. People have been telling me a lot about you, but i just ignore them because i respect you as my boyfriend and i still love you for all the things you've done to me that hurts me a lot. I'm under a depression. Do you know that? Yes, you may say that it wasn't you when you kissed her. Do you like if i do it to you? Do you like it? I bet no. I will just have to say that i'm just not me when i slapped your face just now. It just wasn't me. But whichever girls got to find out about this,i'm totally sure they will hurl a lot and be so traumatised. So, you realised your mistakes and you really really regret doing this to me. But have you ever thinked before you do it? Eventhough it's not you? Have you ever thinked what is my feelings gonna be if i were to find out the truth? All you know is just being secretive.

I, the dumb really thought that you went to ride somewhere else and meet me first before you go home but eventually, you have met that bitch first before me. You said she cancelled the plan, but then you did meet her up the freaking last minute. Without telling me at all? That's one thing i got to know today, the second thing is, you kissed her when you are with me. Why are you so afraid to tell me so that you did that to her? You said it was just an act, but then an act is over and you kept a lot behind me. I really thought that you really let go of her but then i didn't expect all this to happen in just one meet up and just two days of contacting. You say you were irritated with me when i start to kiss you and do all this stuff to you. But do you know how hurt i am seeing you lying to me and doing all this stuff to me? I just don't get you. I have been myself for eight months but you are pesturing me to change myself towards you. Do you want that to happen?

I'm really sad after all this has happened. I showered you with all my love and i showed you care and much more stuff and why? Why just you can't see it and you have to do this to me? What have i done wrong to you? Am i controlling you so much until you hate me? You say that you feel hurt when i slapped you. Please, double the feelings to what you are feeling and that's how i feel. I trust so much on you. You told me that i don't ask you what you did to her on the day that you met her. How am i supposed to ask you when i don't even know that you go and meet her up? What do you expect me to ask? If i ask too much, you may not like it. So how? I'm naive.

You've admitted that you kissed her. That's you. I've told you to think twice before you do anything but then you keep on deny-ing saying that you've think twice. Hey, it's just an act okay baby? Don't worry, i won't fall for her. WHAT'S ALL THIS SHIT?! You made me think as if you are treating me so rough, i'll play rough back. I brought you down and talked to her. You said sorry,but you think i just could forgive you just in one click? You are just about to show me improvements in your attitude but then all this happen and how am i supposed to trust you when you've broken the biggest trust from me. I'm dying you know, inside my heart. I just can't explain this anymore.

Thanks for what you've done to me. I've been a BIG FOOL for eight months listening and trusting you. But i'm wrong. It brings me to the end here. I'm sorry )': You disgraced your name to me and you've not only hurt me but you hurt your mum, your teacher and mostly youself. All i want you to know is, i've hurt a lot by your attitude and all this. I'm not asking much, i just want you to be truthful to me. Do you get me? You ruined my day as this is my last day being a sec two student in Springfield and you spoiled my day and my friends day too.

I'm just, heartbroken with all that has happened. No matter how much you say sorry to me, i'll be traumatised by this problem forever in my life. You made a good lesson to me. Thanks, Kurniawan Adeyanto. I appreciate it a lot. And to you Mazlina, you freaking bitch ass,lying is all you know. BYE )':

I'm lost,in love.

Defend by your silence

blinded by the tears,

If you're looking for forgiveness,

You wont find that,here.

Cause you lied your way to heartbreak,

and now it's all to clear, that you will never be.

YOU ARE SUCH A BITCH, ASS-HOLE.

I HATE YOU. DISTURBANCE IN MY RELATIONSHIP.

I'LL GET YOU ONCE AND FOR ALL.

JUST WAIT FOR MY PRESENTS.

Bashful little bear.

Hi, i have been counting down the days to the last day and starting from today, we left with three more days to spend time with others before the time really ends and it's a time's up for all of us. So, let's enjoy this moments together okay? I seriously can't handle this type of situation anymore, but i'm really making my life freaking easy to accept all this face. This is life.

On the contrary, baby bought me a beautiful care bear for our eight monthsary. Thank you so much baby <3>

After school, it ended early today which is at 12.35pm i went to hang around at 893 with my girlfriends before i leave to Tampines Mall with baby, Hafiz and Elfi. Walked around toy'r'us and search for my little bear and i finally found it at Urban Concepts. Walked around and baby send me to the bustop and i'm home by 28. So yeah, there's a busybody coming into my relationship now. Hmm, which mouse is that who is super hungry and go steal my cheese? Watch out you.

Fine, we shall seee how sorry you're gonna be. Better be sorry or daddy's gonna show you how sorry you'll be bitch~ Goodnight.

Happy 8th Monthsary.

Happy 8th monthsary baby. Okay, that was fast people. Seriously, i don't really actually feel as if i'm in love with baby and being with him for eight months already. Time flies so fast. Eventhough we fought a lot during our seventh month,but always remember iloveyou no matter what or how.

Today i'm at Tampines, mummy's house. I've send a eight monthsary message to baby at 12 am and i went to sleep after that. I'm super exhausted. Seriously. okay, currently i'm munching on my kfc night meal. YUM! Want some? So yeah, tomorrow is monday and it's school day.

End of the post. bye :D

I'm counting down.

YAY! It's Friday. Since it is the last day of the week, i want to have a BIG rest by tonight meaning that i want to go to sleep and wake up late just like every Saturdays.

There's lots of absentees today in class and wtf -.- Guys, just come to school lah. We have like how many more days to spent together before time runs out. Nana didn't came today and Amirah has to go for Shooting training and i'm all left alone with Qistina and Atiqah. But mostly, i spend the whole day today with my chinese friends. Really enjoyed talking and joking with them. Not only that,i just couldn't stop disturbing Miss Rafiqah about my art and still, she just laugh as she can't take it anymore. HAHA!

Training was perfectly okay and fun. I really love today after all the push-ups and loads more i still love it and i treasure today. I did lots and lots of push-ups,sit-ups and of course, giving encouragement to our both Challenge Quest participants by doing skipping for how many times in a minute. WOW! I really need to buck up on my skipping techniques. Okay, so drills. We learned drills with the rifle and i love it. Just couldn't stop thinking and recapping all about the jokes we did today. Afterall, either me or Farhanah will be chosen to go for Freestyle Drill Course and also i really jolly well wants to joing Advanced Drill Course. Seriously! For that, we sat outside NCC room and Siang Jun, Jeffrey and Ah Bong gave us some foods that they don't want to eat. We had our dinner and went home straight after that.

Now, i got two baby's beside me. YAY! Sya and Ziqah is here !!!

A long way journey.

Hey thereeeeeeeeee' ! I've not been updating much huh? Well,i'm terribly sorry. I've been busy,again this week. So yeah. Let me start okay?

On Monday, i've been at home since morning till night. Wanted to plan to go out with baby,qistina and sufie. But then, we changed plan to go out the very next day. We planned to visit Khuz, but then we heard that the family wants peace and privacy so we are planning not to go until Khuz is transferred to the normal ward. I spent my time as a couch potato at home :))

On Tuesday, i woked up around ten plus and had my breakfast before i finally get ready and go out. Qistina and myself planned to go out together as a 'couples' but then she didn't want to go where i wanted to go. We went our seperate ways. She went out with Sufie,Atiqah and Qamar to Marina Square just to play bowling and watch movies while baby,Irsyad,Hao Neng and myself went to Vivocity, Double Helix Bridge, Marina Bay Sands and lastly, Esplanade. First we went to get our lunch at Vivo, we had Secret Recipe and then slacked at the skypark before we head to Double Helix by cab. I paid the fees. Walked around the Helix Bridge and then went in to Marina Bay Sands just to walk around and round the shopping mall. Someone is really asking me for expensive stuffs like Ferragamo and Puma. What the? -.- Went off to Esplanade to have early dinner. I didn't get anything cause i'm super full at that time. I just ate chendol. Hao Neng dropped off at the same station as me.

I was at mummy's house for days and that's why i just can't update this blog. Anyway, Wednesday is back to school day and the results for EOY are OUT! Guess what? I passed five subjects. I just can't believe it that i managed to reach the criteria to go to sec three. Alhamdullilah. I'm so relieved to see my results, eventhough i did not do it well and pass it with flying colours, at least i got my aims already and that makes me super friggin happy. So, right now i'm just waiting to enjoy during the school holiday and of course, i would like to spend my last few days with my dearest twocompassion and i want it to be a MEANINGFUL one. Alright, so basically i've chose my class for next year. I meant, not chose. Streaming it is. Yeah, so first class of all that i chose is 3Aspiration,Benevolence and lastly, Compassion. I'm sorry Compassion i have to put you to the last choice because i don't think i can go into that good and first class. My only hope right now is , Aspiration and Benevolence. Wish me luck on getting Aspiration cause i wanna take Art.

Alright,it's time to go now. I'll update more okay? BYE :D

It's been four days.

Hi. I know i've been MIA a lot this two weeks since it's the exams period and of course, something really bad happened to one of my best-friend. First up is of course, a good news. Exam's are officially O-V-E-R! I can finally spread open my wings and fly fly fly. Haha. That's what Miss Ong always tells us. After the last paper i had on Thursday which is Art Paper, i still have to go for an another examination by the MOE. What the hell? -.- The exam that i sat for is like asking me questions that are good for primary students? I know it is international Science and Mathematics exams. But still? :/

So yeah, the previous day before the art exam, one of my friend met with an accident which i think that it's not going to be that worst but then, it came out so. It really brings my heart down after hearing everything that has happened by Khairi who is the witness for the accident. I can't imagine myself in his situation. Every day and night, thinking about his "little bro". I did pay Khuzaifah a visit on the day itself which is Thursday. I went with Qistina but then this little princess needs me to fetch at Pasir Ris and so i did :D I didn't get to meet him when he was in the ICU, i only gets to meet him when his bed is pushed to the operation theatre. Guys, can't you imagine it? A very strong rock-climber going through all this stuff? I really pray hard for him, so much )': Yes, i do miss him more than baby (: I really hope he could recover as soon as possible.

Two days ago, i went out with mummy and cousins to Plaza Singapura to watch my cousin who is in the competition ' 100 hours of movie indulgence' organized by Nescafe. The competition looks so fun because you just have to watch movies and only have around fifteen minutes of break every three movies. You can't go to sleep, go to the toilet or even, stand up to stretch yourself. Weird enough? The things that you can do is only, ask for water, sit, eyes focus to the screen. That's all. Only for 100 hours and you will win a prize of $ 10,000 and a trip for two to HOLLYWOOD! Isn't that cool? But unfortunately, my cousin raised his last lap at the time of 49 hours going to 50. At least, i'm proud of him. I would like to join the competition next year. On the contrary, i got a free meal from KFC voucher given by my cousins. Thanks :D So, just shop at plaza singapura.

Alright, i'm done here. Everything is gonna get better~

THE WAY YOU TREAT ME.

Hey there, I'm blogging very late night today. Wow! It has been a long time i've done this. So yeah, the time now is 11.34pm. I am now currently finishing up my art prep work when i have to think about two problems. Alright, it really makes my heart broke down so much. I seriously hate today. A lot of things happened. I don't wish to elaborate a lot about it yeah. So, i'll just say about Khuz. Well, he's now hospitalized 'cause he met with an accident just now near Tampines Polyclinic. What a pity to him. He's in coma right now. Oh gosh, please wake up from all this Khuz. I miss youuu, miss your jokes. Please please please, wake up my dear. Don't keep us waiting for your return. We miss you so much Khuz.

Basically, i'm just not in the mood to type anything cause i'm hurt right now. I don't think i can go to sleep tonight easily. Argh -.- eventhough my eyes are super tired already )': I think i shall go now.

Baby'Boy.

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey' What's up people?
Alright, so far I've taken 8 papers for Final Term Examinations and there's one more important subject left before art and then it's time for hooray-hooray ((: I just can't wait for that moment but wait, i have to to one more thing after the arts examinations. I have to go for a survey from MOE and the duration is two hours plusplus. -.- I hate it soooo muchhhhh(!)

Today, it was the Science paper and i swear i just couldn't concentrate on it because it's soooo freaking hot sitting at the first row seats. This is why i hate examinations, i cannot sit under the fan. I'm a hot princess y'know. Hahahha :D Fanatic me. Stop it. Lol. What's more when the science paper is two hours and it just sucks to the core. I don't think i can survive maths and science,again. History? I got no judgements for it. Let the marks decide.

I'm so sorry that i've not been spending time blogging more about my life as i'm super busy,y'know. Okay, good news. I just received a new-born cousin and he is Muhammad Adam Iman. He's sooooo cute~ He's my latest addiction. Don't worry, i will still entertain Sya and Ziqah. HA-HA. Alright,i have to go now to complete my art prep work.

ART IN TWO DAYS TIMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (!) :/

When we are together.

Hey theeereeeee' Today is Saturday and it rock very muchhhhh! I like. There's cousins gathering today at granny's house. YAY!

Okay,so yeah. I still havent yet do to my Art prep work yet and i'm super duper busy right now. I'm going back to mummy's house later at night and i'm waiting for Abg Han to come and bring the cd called Mantra. Nyehehehehehe ^^ another ghost story coming up for me to watch. Anyway,i just watched Lagenda Budak Setan and it's super sad and sweet. By the way, someone had an accident to his legs and he injured himself. That's my boy. Hahhaha (: What a pity to him. Takecare okay dear? <3>

Alright,shall off now. Need to buckle up on my Science later (;

I judged the book by it's cover

I have no hopes for mathematics paper. Paper one is done and two is coming up real soon. Mathematics paper one sucks so much for me and it's basically not being good to me. Actually, i shall say that i'm not being good to that paper because I didn't practise much on it. Hmm, for literature it's quite okay since i did memorise on the poetry and drama. Haha :D This is the first time i love literature so much,still i don't think i can pass it.

History is up tomorrow. I've done notes and i've done with revising and reading all the important notes. I ran through from chapter six to ten. It's just two chapters. I really hope i could make it this time eventhough my global dollars is only ten. Amin. Pray real hard for me and i'll pray hard for you too (: Since tomorrow's paper ends very very early, i think i shall just slack for awhile and then go home straight to study for my science and of course, finish up my art prep work. I'm totally running out of time already. Rushing through here and there. Gosh! When can i finally get myself relaxed from all this stuff and also, i'm worried about my art because i'm not done with it's colour scheme. Argh! Paint,crayons or pencils? Help meeeee! BOOHOO! This is surely a booboo for me.

And oh,my head is currently having a boo-boo due to the takraw ball that was hit at my head. Ouch! Nevermind, sometimes will do. Anyway, i see someone has a fan already from sec one. Hahah. Best of luck eh bby and that girl. Well then, i shall stop here and end the day. Byeeeee ((:

Sometimes love came when you least expect it

Hello, English Paper One and English Paper Two is being quite nice to me just now is school.
It wasn't that tough though but still,I'm afraid if i could fall back into time. Argh -.-
Tomorrow is mathematics and literature and trust me, i won't have any hopes for maths.
I want to get rid of mathematics subjects outta my mind as soon as possible.
I know it's going to be a hard one for me tomorrow )':
I didn't practise much,still i don't think i can survive.
Oh well, let's just let the day decide.
Anyway, History paper is in two days time and i really hope that i will get to pass in it.
Help me,help me )':
I'm stressed out in everything.
I feel like giving up any minute of my life right now.
It just sucks to the core and of course, i have problems right now.
I'm jumping down a building already.
Goodbye.
I hate life. FML -.-

Examinations.

HEY THERE! I'm currently mugging right now. Argh -.-

Tomorrow is the start of the first paper. English Language.

Alright,i'm down with a fever, sore throat and flu. GOSH!

Go awaaaaaaay right now, i need to survive for the examms!

SHOO SHOOOOOO!

I don't think i can update really much this week and next week.

Shall update when things finishes up.

Pathetic Weekend.

Hey there. What a pathetic weekend this week. I really really am freaking stressed out with everyone who is so noisy nagging at me for my wrongdoings and what's more, it always happens when exams are just around the corner. No,wait. It's not corner anymore, it's like two days away before the first paper. Argh! I got no hopes for maths but maybe for science. God,please help me this time,please please please. I'm praying reallyreally hard. :/

Situation these days with baby has not been good. He is super stressed right now. Everyone is very very stressed. Argh! My stomach is making problem to me right now. I'm having those pain come pain go stomach aches right now. It's super annoying. I really hate this sooooo much!

Today is super Sunday. It's boring really, i have to stay home alone today when all my family has went out to go for a wedding reception at Bishan. I'm home alone just now. I wanted to follow but then i'm lazy. Haha, I know imma weird alien these few days -.- Okay, i think i have to stop blogging for today. Bye peepos! Stay tune.

i know who am i

Heyheyhey~ Yesterday was totally fun at Airport. We went there to study. Eventhough it's life four to five people, we really enjoyed ourselves so muchhh. Okay, so yeah. Exams are coming. I got to go (: Bye :D