Ignored.

Ignored. I'm sure everyone has ever felt that way before. Being ignored by your family and friends. Family don't usually ignore each other unless they really hate you or something but i'm sure everyone has ever been ignored by a friend or you ignore a friend. What i'm about to share today in this blog post are things that i have gone through sometime ago...

I just don't understand myself sometimes. 

I put in effort to show to others that i love them and care for them but none of them realized it. During my secondary school days, i had so many crushes on guys. Some were REAL crushes and the others was just a normal crush. There's this guy in my class whom i like so much, i gave him signals, made efforts to show to him that i'm interested in him indirectly but...nothing worked out. I had to confess to him and... I GOT REJECTED. 

I don't understand why. Maybe it was just too early for everything? Maybe. I feel ignored after the confession that i made to him. Everything was just so awkward at that point of time. 

(but we're somehow close friends now, we will text each other once in a while and i'm thankful for that.) He's now a history, lol. 

Last year, 2013.

(I know, i was in a relationship last year but it only lasted for 2 weeks or so, i can't remember) 

There's this guy that i met at another college. Again, he's just another crush but...

I was interested in him so much just like when i like that guy in my secondary school days. We met twice. I still remember i had butterflies in my stomach when i met him 

at Starbucks with my friends. I think he knew that i sort of have a crush on him but he didn't make it obvious, i guess? My friends was so supportive of me liking him, well, that's the least that i know? Maybe they don't but they act like they do. I don't know. 

We talked, we mentioned each other on Twitter and then in December, it was his birthday. He like donuts, strawberries and he wished to get a helium balloon for his 17th birthday (that's what he tweeted on Twitter)

I, woke up early in the morning to travel all the way to downtown Singapore, to get donuts and strawberries. Travel to two different places, to get all the stuff FOR HIM. 

YES, FOR HIM. 

I waited, 2 hours under his apartment block. I didn't had his number at that time so i sent him a Direct Message on Twitter to let him know that i was waiting downstairs with presents for him since it's his birthday. He came down and i could see that he was quite shocked.  We took some pictures and then i left. 

I know, if we like someone, we have to put in the effort to let them know or at least make them notice us. 

My 18th Birthday. 

My girlfriends, invited him(that guy that i suprised) to celebrate my 18th birthday together. He told my girlfriends that he will come to celebrate my birthday in return to what i did for his birthday but...the night before my birthday, he backed off. He told one of my girls that he couldn't make it and therefore we should just go ahead without him. I didn't know that he was invited until he texted me and say "I'm sorry i couldn't make it to your birthday but i'll make it up to you one day with donuts."  

I was shocked. I never thought that my friends will actually invite him. I told him that its fine that he couldn't join us (hoping that he will actually change his mind and actually go.)

Up till today...he never came back to make it up to me. We mentioned each other on Twitter sometimes and there was once he said "oh i still haven't get you donuts." and i was happy that he remembered but yeah, still no sign of him up till today. And guess what? 5 months has passed, he had a girlfriend, broke up with her and now he's dating another girl. I'm sure he dated more than 2 or 3 girls in the past 5 months. 

I was there all along, waiting for him, not like i want him so badly that i would jump down a building. But, all i wanted was him to just notice what i did for him. I know its not that much but i put in so much efforts but everything just doesn't get to where i want it to be. I don't know if i'm cursed or what but seriously...i have made so much efforts in letting someone know that i care for them and all i ever get in return is...

BEING AND GETTING IGNORED. 

It's not fun. 

I'm more stable now like i'm happy with my life being around  my family and friends. I think that the guys that I've dated previously has made me change my perspective of guys. I think that most guys are the same, except some. If you're lucky enough, you will find someone that is not the same like the rest. Therefore, after all this that happened to me in my past, i have finally made a decision that i'm just gonna let everything go with the flow, wait for the right time and all i want to do now is to cherish and ENJOY life as much as i can because i'm not sure if i'm guaranteed another day to live my life. 

I will wait for that right person to come and prove to me that not all guys are the same. I will wait for the day to come. 

Trust me, being happy is the best thing the world. 

I know i'm stronger than this. 

I just hope that one day, all this people will realized those that are standing right in front of their eyes all this while.. and regret the things that they did not do rather than the things that they did. (: 

Love, 

Athirah (: 

Medium Ash Brown Hair

After a long long long period of time with dark brown/black hair, I finally decided to change up my hair color once again. The last time i had crazy colors on my hair was during my school holidays last year. Since i ended school earlier this month, i have actually planned to color dark royal blue to my hair but my mum didn't allow me to do so. I took some time to search around the internet for colors that are suitable for my hair and i finally found the color that will go well!


Medium Ash Brown.

I'm on a budget this month because it's the school holidays and i will need money if i were to go out with my friends so i decided to buy the normal Revlon Hair Dye that is available at any drugstore. Thank god i found the color that i wanted. The last time i dyed my hair Alphine Green, i didn't bleach it properly so the color didn't came out that much so i learnt my lesson and i make sure that i bleach it properly this time and here's the process of bleaching my hair.

I've never EVER seen myself having such bright color on my hair so i was a bit in shock when the color came out. My mum saw it too and she said that i look like a witch. I blow dried my hair so that i could start dyeing my hair to the color that i wanted. I'm using Revlon's Medium Ash Brown in number 40. 

Yes, $4.50 only so cheap! 

I waited for 30 minutes for the color to set and washed it off. Blow dried my hair again and here's the final results. I ended everything at 2AM last night, haha. 

This was taken today. The color was more visible indoors and also under the sunlight. 

I am loving my new hair color and i'm planning to re-dye it again once i start to see black roots and keep on re-dye it over and over again till i get bored of it. Now, what i can hope for is that, my attachment place will allow me to have colors on my hair. *prays hard* 

Waiting for my McDonalds to arrive now

Hope this post helps!

Love,

Athirah 

Nene Chicken @ Bedok Mall

Tried Nene Chicken for the first time yesterday with my secondary school friends. We decided to have dinner at Nene Chicken since most of us haven't tried it before. At first, I thought that Nene Chicken was like KFC, just normal fried chicken with fries and a coke. Amirah told me that Nene Chicken is from Korea so the chicken is cooked in Korean-Style. Basically the chicken is coated in different type of sauces. There's cheese sauce, Swicy Chicken, Freaking Hot and more like Sesame Chicken. The chicken are served with Buffalo Wings which i think tastes similar as McDonald's Twister Fries.

 The set meal and i ordered some 'NenePoP' as my side dish. It's just popcorn chicken. And if you know me, I like spicy food so i ordered the Freaking Hot Chicken and extra Freaking Hot Sauce. I swear it is FREAKING HOT. I had to buy 2 cups of Coke Light because the chicken is too spicy but its sooooooooooo goood (: 

I don't even know why it's called Buffalo Sticks. It's not made from Buffalo but...haha, it taste just like McDonald's Twister Fries. Definitely gonna get this when i'm craving for twister fries.  

  Omg, craving for it again now.  *.*

One weird thing: They will serve you plastic gloves to use when you eat the chicken and it was my first time eating with gloves on so that explains why my face in the third picture, haha. The actual reason why they gave you the glove is because...there's so sink for you to wash your hands after eating. I still don't get it why there's no sink for us to wash our hands. Maybe this is a traditional way of eating at Nene Chicken? 

Haziqah had to leave so that explains why we had to take pictures with her first. We ended up walking around Bedok Mall. I bought some sushi, chocolates before going home. Thank god Bedok Mall is just a few metres away from my home. 

Had a great dinner with girls! Hope to hang around with you guys again soon! 

Love,

Athirah 

Taylor Swift's - THE RED TOUR

THE SHOW WAS FREAKING AWESOME! 

I gotta admit that Taylor Swift sounds so good live that i had chills when she hits all those high notes! I'm having a post concert depression now, i always have this whenever i go to a concert. The show was so awesome that i wished i had went for both shows in Singapore. Last night's show was the last show for The Red Tour and Taylor sure put in more effort for the last show! 

I'm so happy that i got to experience this sold out show. Still remember how heartbroken i was when i didn't had any tickets to her show earlier this week. 

I sat directly facing the stage so this picture was taken when i entered the arena. I thought the stage was so small but no, it was huge and it's so near to wear i'm sitting plus there's two stage altogether. Stage A and Stage B. It means that Taylor will perform at both stage! I got to see Taylor clearly when she performed at Stage B. 

The show started with an opening act from Imprompt-3, a local band from Singapore who won the Ride to Fame Contest by Cornetto. They opened up the show by performing a few popular songs and some of their original. It took about half an hour before Taylor makes her appearance. She started off the show with performing her hit song, Treacherous. Next was Holy Ground. The audience was so hyped up all the time during the show! I like how Swifties (Taylor Swift's fans) dress up themselves in red colored shirts, pants and even had some posters and LED light around them. It is a tradition to do a LED light poster for a Taylor Swift's concert. 

Don't know if you could see it.

Taylor then did an opening speech for Singapore and then continued singing. She sang the song Red so perfectly that i had chills because it was SO GOD DAMN AWESOME. She totally killed those high notes. Taylor sang 13 songs in total. 

- Treacherous

- Holy Ground 

-Red 

- Mean

-The Lucky One

- 22

-You Belong With Me (B-Stage) 

- Long Live (B-Stage)

- Sparks Fly (B-Stage)

- I Knew You Were Trouble 

- All Too Well 

- Love Story 

- We Are Never Ever Getting Back Together (Finale) 

                                   

You can find more videos of her singing on Youtube. And guess who i saw at the concert sitting near the sound pit area??? I freaking saw Ellie Goulding at the show too! She is in Singapore for her own concert today, Friday 13th. Taylor definitely sang every song perfectly and i could see that she's tired but she put in more effort since its the last show. The dancers and the band was awesome too. Last night was just... magical. I didn't thought that i could be at Taylor's show. My dreams definitely came true last night and i'm thankful for everything that has happened to me these past few years. I like how i am enjoying myself going to concerts and meeting and making new friends everywhere. Love it. 

That's it. That's the end of the RED era and I'm waiting for Taylor to release her next album, album number 5! Her manager announced that album 5 will be better and the fans will totally love it. Can't wait for it! I wish i could thank Taylor personally for what she has done in my life. She's my inspiration and i like how she can write songs in under 30 minutes and play the guitar for hours and hours till her fingers will bleed. 

Definitely a great night last night. 

Gotta go and heal my post concert depression now.

Till then, 

Love

Athirah

PRE CONCERT - TAYLOR SWIFT THE RED TOUR

So excited to blog about this because.....I have to tell you guys this! 

I'M GOING TO TAYLOR SWIFT'S
THE RED TOUR 

CONCERT!

I was heartbroken the other day when the tickets for the Red Tour was sold out in under 30 minutes after it was being released. I missed the chance to see Taylor back in 2011 when she was doing her Sparks Fly tour and I really don't want to miss any chance, anymore! Initially, there is only one show for Singapore but due to the political events that is going on in Bangkok, Taylor's crew decided to cancel off the show and add another show in Singapore! 

The best part is that... SINGAPORE IS THE LAST STOP FOR THE RED TOUR, WHICH MEANS, IT MUST BE SPECIAL RIGHT?? I can't wait to share this experience with all of you. Be sure to hang around my blog and wait for the blog post to be up! I promise i will blog about it as soon as i get home or the next day! 

Can't wait! See you in less than a day, Taylor!

Love

Athirah